Chapter 3

Why I Was Both Inside and Outside the Story

I am a first-generation Egyptian Arab immigrant to Canada. I am fluent in Arabic, in several dialects, and in English. I have lived inside both the Arab and the Canadian cultural systems. That dual identity positions me as an insider-outsider, and it shaped this research at every stage.

In this kind of qualitative work the researcher is not a neutral instrument. I devised and re-devised the questions. I built rapport and established trust with participants. I did the analysis and the interpretation. Cultural heritage, language, social status and professional expertise all influence that work, and mine did.

Being a cultural insider gave me real advantages. I could speak with participants in whichever language they preferred — English, French or Arabic — and I understood the modes of communication they used, including indirect styles, which helped them open up. When someone said inshallah, I did not need it explained. When someone shifted into dialect to tell me something delicate, I heard the shift.

The disadvantages were just as real. There is the risk that participants read an advanced doctoral researcher, visibly integrated into Canadian academia, as somebody living in an ivory tower far away from the actual lives of service workers. There is the risk that my status was taken as an endorsement of a Western-focused framework, or simply as authority — and deference to authority, as this book will show at length, is exactly the kind of thing that limits what people are willing to say. Ethnic identity may buy trust; social status may buy silence. My degree of integration into Canadian life could read to a recent arrival as “too Westernised” to understand what they were going through. Assumptions based on a name, a dialect, an appearance or a demeanour can activate in-group and out-group dynamics before a single question is asked.

I did not pretend these effects away. I worked against them.

I kept a reflexive journal throughout data collection and analysis, recording my own thoughts, reflections and emotions about the participants, and used it as a compass for judging how my conduct was affecting the data. I paid attention to the setting and tried to make every interview warm and cooperative, adapting how I spoke to each participant and to the context of their work. Knowing that my position as a doctoral researcher might create a sense that I was somehow above the people I was interviewing, I avoided displays of status or expertise. Participants told their stories in their own way and their own order.

Every interview opened the same way: my name is, I am an Egyptian immigrant to Canada for this many years. Then I explained why I was doing the research and what I hoped it would change. I used simple everyday non-academic language, and I told each person explicitly that there were no correct or incorrect answers, because all points of view were valuable. Afterwards, participants were given an initial summary of the themes drawn from their narratives and invited to review it — a check on my interpretation by the only people qualified to make it.

I treat reflexivity as an ethical commitment to accountability and humility rather than a procedural box. My background shapes what I notice and how I read it. Where my assumptions were not supported by evidence, I tried to catch them and question them. Where my own reactions entered the analysis, I have said so, so that you can weigh the trustworthiness of what follows for yourself. Qualitative research is interpretive by nature, and both the researcher and the participants are involved in making the meaning.

There is one more thing to declare. I did not come to this question from a distance. It began with something I observed in my professional life in marketing and business strategy that many organisations have not considered with an open mind. I had a suspicion before I had evidence. What changed in the course of the work was not the direction of the answer but its weight — I expected to find a story of difficulty, and I found a story of strength.

Now the fourteen can speak.